Why hello 2012!

Before the new year started I had to "freshen" up: meaning I redid my ombre, which I am definitely more pleased with the second time around; also got a well needed facial and massage; and on top of that, a new phone! (Which was basically a 'gift' from actor Sam Milby! But I'll go in depth with that another time!) Another new thing happened, something extremely unexpected that I NEVER saw coming...but it did. That's life for you. Just hoping the eventual outcome of 'it' will be positive.
Basically lots of new-ness! And I suppose the reason why I am rambling about all this NEW stuff is because yet again I am REALLY considering changing my blog name! I said previously that my blog name sometimes reflects a specific stage or phase in my life and I feel another one has ended, so I'd like to change it. Already have something in mind, just really need help with spicing up my layout! Anything generic and or mediocre is not for me. ;)


Instead of listing down my resolutions, I'll just summarize some goals for 2012 + beyond:

~Have more productive days and less leisure time.
~Take action. Keep moving. Don't waste time.
~Live and lead a healthier lifestyle. (Eat right + exercise consistently) What you put inside your body does reflect what's on the outside. (ie: BETTER skin! Something I've been striving for since forever!)
~Fix my body clock/sleeping schedule/whatever you want to call it. I basically want to sleep at normal hours, wake up before noon even on weekends and not be known as the insomniac night owl any longer.
~Take more pictures! Actually USE my DSLR!
~Read more. Been buying books but haven't been touching them. :|
~Get more organized!
~Fix and give my room a makeover. 2011 = the year my room has been at its messiest. Something I'm not proud of and sorta shocked I got away with considering how my mom is...
~And lastly always be positive and don't sweat the small stuff! Anything I encounter that's negative (from a situation or person) I shall avoid and will remove from my life.


Tis all! I look forward to "meeting" my new blog and any other change(s) in between that I'll meet this month. :)

Thankful

I'm wide awake thanks to late night caffeine yet again. Thanksgiving just passed so I thought I'd share what I'm thankful for: being alive and healthy, for my parents, my real friends and hmm guess that's all. Those are the things that actually matter, BUT I am thankful for my Blackberry, Sephora, Anything related to fashion, Gossip Girl writers for giving us awesome Dair scenes this past year and Target for giving me a place to roam whenever I am bored. Guess I'm high off life and coffee since I am writing such a silly entry! I am also thankful that one of my personal problems has finally ended in a way/got resolved/things came to full circle, etc. So that's a huge weight off my back and heart. I am definitely in a more cheery mood but not completely. Just happy to face the approaching new year with one less of a problem.




I always read this whenever I feel sorta "low". It seems to help.

lent time

Giving up any form of coffee for lent (which started on March 9). Now this will actually be a challenge for me compared to last year when I gave up MySpace... oh yea such torture that was!

Been

single for 1 year now, yay.

On Feb 2011, I'll be single for 1 year & 6months which equals.. longest period I've EVER been single.
Just felt the need to boast, since nowadays most people can't even last months without having somebody. Well I can. Being single isn't so bad and why rush into things & commitment? You're only young once, so live it up & enjoy it before you're tied down forever.


Though I admit sometimes I miss this.....




but that's VERY rare! ;D

Languorous

Well you know I think my fate's belated, because of all the hours I waited, for the day when I'd no longer cry.
I get myself to work by eight but oh, was I born too late? And do you think I'll fail at every single thing I try?

Just one of those nights...
Nights where I feel vulnerable and a bit nostalgic. When I think about my past, present and future. All the pain and fear builds up & appears in my head. I sometimes long for days years ago, when I was carefree & naive. When I was a dreamer. Those times feel so long ago. Wake me up when August ends. (August happens to be my least favorite month, because for the past 3 years, something bad had always occurred to me)

I promise you though I am still an optimistic and happy person. Just having a moment I suppose, and blogging it out helps. I love how blogging/fashion cheers me up. :) I shall overcome.

A bit of everything

Ever since I got my Coastal Scents 88 palette, I've been experimenting with different looks. I still don't think applying eyeshadow is my forte but I'm learning, hopefully I'll improve. If not...I'll just stick with fashion. ;)

Here's a purple smokey eye look that I did:




I'm not the most organized person in the world, I usually jot down notes/appointments on my cell phone. But I personally think writing things down by hand is better. So I thought for the new year I'd start using a planner. I also use it as a mini diary.

Got mines from Moleskine. I named her Vivian:





Valentine's Day 2010 was fun. It's the third V-day in a row that I've been single, so I'm used to it. Even when I had a boyfriend, I didn't care so much for it. But now I use it as an excuse to hang out with my girls!! Yay. Who needs lying and manipulative men anyways? Cause I sure don't. :)
On the 13th I hung out with 3 of my close friends for some serious catching up time.
On the actual day of V-day my best friend and I got dressed up and went out to eat at The Cheesecake Factory. I wish I took more pictures, but I tend to forget about my camera when I'm having a lot of fun.


^A swan that Mel made.


^Gift from Tien<3 Thanks mama!



Speaking of Cheesecake Factory, my favorite cheesecake from there is the White Chocolate Raspberry Truffle! I'm having mad cravings for it right at this very moment!! It's crazy delicious:




It even comes in ice cream form! I must head to Walmart tomorrow.




I'm definitely buying one of these lipsticks from MAC's Viva Glam campaign w/ Lady Gaga and Cyndi Lauper. Anything to support AIDS awareness.




Some things I'm eyeing from Urban Outfitters:





I also want an accessory stand from UO. Just deciding which one, since there is so many to choose from.

On a side note I'm giving up MySpace for lent. Was also considering coffee but that is too hard. ;_;
Feel free to share what you'll be giving up for lent this year. :)

Breaking Point

"Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts,
don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours."

pic by mary. 2007.

I still think it is extremely unfortunate how people treat other people's trust. They don't take it seriously at all.

Trust is something big for me, nothing to take lightly. I'm actually an extremely forgiving person, but I know my limits. I know when I look foolish. I know when people view me as a walking doormat. So I learn to stand my ground.

The events that have taken place for almost half a year, is really molding/changing how I view people from now on. I think the really nice, purehearted, trusting, green and naive Isabelle has died. Sadly I don't understand why people can't take me seriously. I need to stop being so nice to everyone. I need to be a cold bitch. I should seriously act like Blair Waldorf from now on. I notice whenever I'm TOO nice and trusting of people, I end up hurt and left feeling like I got taken for granted. They feel they can walk all over me because they know (more like assume) I'll forgive them. I should start being mean and intimidating, so no one can dare mess with me and my feelings.
Ironically a lot of people have told me their first impression of me is in fact intimidating and a bit snobby (probably because in general I don't tend to smile a lot, especially around strangers and especially inside a classroom!) BUT when they get to know me I'm the complete opposite. I love proving first impressions wrong. But at the same time I wouldn't mind if people feared me just a tad bit. -__-

But despite what I wrote above, I know I could never just be mean, especially for no apparent reason. I treat people how they want to be treated. Been doing that since I was a kid. But I need to change some aspects of my personality and I will have my guard up whenever I meet new people; whether it be new friends, classmates or potential wooers.

Just a bit pleased that I'm at a point where I feel a bit refreshed and renewed. Where as each day passes by, I'm leaving a lot of my negative thoughts behind me and just looking forward to each new day. I do what I do for me.

I feel like a dove. Specifically the dove featured in Queen's "Save Me" music video. Ok that sounded weird, but I hope I made my point!

As for the the picture above, I've always labeled it as my 'lost' picture. It seemed to match the topic of my post.
But anyways it is from a mini photo shoot that Mel and I did for Mary Anne's suicide awareness ad. Good times!! I should post some pics next time just for laughs and nostalgia purposes.

Fashion related survey

Found this survey on missnonhuman's blog.
It's originally one of those tagged surveys, but I decided to just steal it: ^.~


What is/are your current obsession(s)?
Gray nail polish, short hair, Gaga & Mick Jagger.

What is your weirdest obsession?
Gaga maybe? Or Freddie Mercury's teeth.

What are you wearing today?
My university sweatshirt; pedal pusher sweats & PJ top from Target (aka Tarjay).
Yes I am one of those people who loves staying in their PJs most of the day. :)

What’s for dinner today?
Hmm maybe fish or cheese with bread. Or pasta! :D

Why is today special?
Who said it was?

What would you like to learn to do?
French tip my own nails, ice skate and ride a motorcycle.

What’s the last thing you bought?
Either Gatorade or medicine.

What are you listening to right now?
Brown Eyes- Lady Gaga.

What is your favorite weather?
Cold weather.

What is your most challenging goal right now?
Repairing myself completely.

What do you think about the person/blog where you took this survey from?
Love her blog, and her style is awesome.

If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?
It is definitely a tie between London or Paris.

What would you like to have in your hands right now?
New cell phone!

If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?
Sweden!

Which language do you want to learn?
French, fluently please.

What do you look for in a friend?
Someone who is honest, loyal and real.
Oh and they must have a great sense of humor!
Also anyone who is accepting of me and my weird ways/obsessions. :)

Who do you want to meet in person?
Many people, but Johnny Depp still tops my list!
I just feel lucky enough that I saw him in person twice.

What’s your favorite type of music?
I love classic rock, my favorite band of all time is Queen.
I can be open to anything, I have a thing for lyrics I can relate to. I also love indie.

What’s the favorite piece of clothing in your own closet?
I can't pick just one. :( But I love my Levi's.

What is your dream job?
(After nursing) Fashion editor, owner of my own vintage shop, food critic, Depp's wife, etc.
Jk on the last one.

Any favorite models?
In terms of mainstream/commercial models, I adore Adriana Lima and Miranda Kerr.

When it comes to high fashion models, I love Kate Moss, Natalia Vodianova, Natasha Poly, Chanel Iman and Gemma Ward.
My personal favorite is probably Gemma cause I love how versatile she was. Too bad she is no longer in the business. :( I'd love to see a comeback from her.

If you had $100 now what would you spend it on?
Headphones! Or an accessory stand.

Favorite designers?
Marc Jacobs, Alexander McQueen, Karl Lagerfeld and many more.

What’s your must have for the summer season?
Good pair of shorts, sandals (preferably gladiator style), hat, aviator or over sized shades, vests etc.

Do you admire anyone’s style?
Yep a lot of people.

Describe your personal style.
It is me.
Don't like putting my style in one category, since I'm open to try/wear anything. But at the moment it is a mixture of chic, vintage, glam and casual.

What is one of your favorite books?
To Kill A Mockingbird.

No longer a teen

I was a subscriber to Teen Vogue from 2005-2009 (so from ages 16-20).
I told myself, as soon as I turn 20.. I'll upgrade to Vogue, and that's exactly what I did.
Nice way to start off the new decade with a new magazine subscription. Though I gotta renew one for Nylon. It just suddenly stopped coming in the mail, without any notification. -__-

As of recently, the weather has been gloomy (rain, rain, rain) so there hasn't been an opportunity to do photo shoots for outfits. I admit I love cold weather and the rain, but it would be nice to see some sun. Weather like this makes me want to stay curled up in bed all day.


Happy Birthday Mary Anne!!
It's official, you are now allowed to drink LEGALLY. Whoohoo.

Story of my life

Literally. Even specific details.

This scene describes in the best way possible about being broken and repairing yourself back to normal:

10 resolutions for 2010

1. Get more sleep! (Stop sleeping around 3-5am. Since about 5 months ago, my sleeping pattern has never been the same.)

2. Become a more responsible and independent person in everything that I do.

3. Prioritize and manage my time more efficiently.

4. Drive more. (Yes I have a license, since '08. I just don't care to drive for some reason. Guess I'm weird.)

5. Take care of myself. (Meaning my health, diet, exercise, skin, heart etc.)

6. Make school and my future my top priority. (Nursing school/LL here I come!)

7. Read more. (I have so many books I want to read. I hope to have days where I can just sit at home the whole time, with coffee and a good book.)

8. Get a job. (Never had one. Ever. It's about time I try it out and gain some experience. I've already applied at a couple of jobs, so I hope to get hired somewhere.)

9. Be more respectful and appreciative towards my parents. (Overall I AM a respectful daughter, well...compared to others around my age bracket. But I want to be even more nicer and really show how grateful I am to have them. Cause at the end of the day, you only have 1 set of parents. Love them and don't take them for granted.)

10. Stay single. (I'm not shutting out love completely, cause I know you can't stop what is supposed to happen. But as much as possible, I don't want a relationship or have anything to do with the dating scene. I like being on my own anyhow. I also need to heal. Plus I've never been the type of girl who jumps into something new just because. Or feel they need to have some form of companionship to be happy. That's never been me, and I will prove just that.)

Tis all.
I am determined to follow them all through the year. :)
Wish me luck. And good luck to those with resolutions as well.
Don't be weak.

Meet Lady Laplap!

My love for pink and OPI nail polish led me to this...



Got her (yep it's a girl) exactly a month ago today. I named her Lady Laplap. :)
I love her so. At least you know laptops can be fashion forward. And it's so compact compared to my last laptop/tablet. So I'm taking good care of this one.
Can't wait to bring her to school libraries and coffee shops.